Snow Day!!!!

Winter life here in Connecticut can be a little unpredictable especially for the weathermen. While Virginia, Maryland and Baltimore are getting pounded by snow, the likes of which they have not seen in some time, if ever, we are waiting. And waiting. And waiting. School was canceled last night,
the administrative staff was called at ten pm and told to stay home (that's me! Yea!), and we were expected to get up to a foot of snow, beginning after midnight. It's currently 3:30 pm and we've had a dusting. My hope is that it starts tonight after midnight and I get to stay home again tomorrow.

I'd planned to do lots of writing today with my free time, but just started now. I did do something productive, though. When I'm on a computer away from home, I'll sometimes find an interesting or helpful writing site, and I'll email the link to myself. My mailboxes were full of sites and info that I never got around to organizing, so I made files for freelance info, contests, finished and unfinished writing pieces of mine and blog and agent info. Now I need to stay on top of it and keep it organized.

Making the contest file reminded me that contests provide the push I need to get motivated and I need to do more of them. They require me to stick to a deadline so I don't continuously put off doing the work. My blog has, as I told myself it wouldn't, taken a back seat on some days to cleaning toilets, writing bills or doing laundry. Or all three. It's especially hard for me to keep motivated when I start to question myself as to why I'm even doing this. I begin to feel inadequate and uncreative, then my inspiration and drive go right out the window. I've always been one to want everything now-instant gratification-and I try to remember to remind myself that this is an ongoing process and will most likely take a long time to see any results. I just have to continue to do it for myself. I think I might be the only one who gets anything out of it.

A little stressed

I'm feeling totally inadequate. I've not been here since Thursday. I have a ton of reading-books and blogs, and I can't keep up. I signed up for the Virtual Zen Retreat with Mary Jaksch on her "Write To Done (I can't even copy her address correctly) blog and I'm having trouble getting quiet and doing the readings.

Sara is going balls to the wall to work on "Priority" stuff, and she's got other bloggers and her fans all doing the same.

I am, as the saying goes, comparing my insides to the outsides of everyone else. Trying to keep up.

I'm going to regroup. I'll be back tomorrow with a better attitude.

Sigh.